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Wednesday, May 27, 2009/ 6:08 PM direction  what is motivation? ytd was some shitted day. doing soccer, frisbee, running all at one day. whats my priority? my body din respond to me during the night workout. just imagine. im already counting down the laps from my very 1st lap, where theres still 29 more laps to go, arent going to help me mentally at all. i din push myself to a faster pace, instead just hoping that training ends early. doing shitty timing, shitty rounds, i told myself to focus, to throw away all my homework, heart matters, stress, but to no avail. they just came back in again. no focus. no motivation. that brings me to my question. whts my motivation exactly? how does one derive it? i feel really bad for missing out on the acsi friendly today. when everyone start popping the question why wasnt i playing, i couldnt speak my mind out. when obviously this is the mess that i got myself in. my legs. i wanted so much to go down and join in the fun. the game becomes more fun when my catches are getting better nowadays. laughing helps relieve stress a lot a lot. i will forget everything for the time being. running makes one fly, only if ur doing at ur own leisure pace, not going through all the time intervals. ultimately, its just. a disc that i enjoyed playing but not very good at it. a track that i din really enjoyed running but good at it. priority? no determination? no split? yes. june holidays are coming. and things really only going to get serious during this period. i need a steering wheel to direct me. on a sidenote, blackforest icecream is so D: good for cai quan uses! |
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